IM BACK!
Dead, is what i pronounce my blog as.
It's FRIDAAAAAAAY woo!
Life has been so "O.K" nowadays.
Well i dont know, been keeping some stuffs to myself lately as it's so hard to trust my friends even those close to me. Gosh i hope this secretive feeling of mine go away. M-Y-E is in a few days time AND now im scared because I currently suck in Chemistry. And i dont wanna repeat the mistake which I repeated during my Common Test and that is to not study earlier. Gosh how stress is this. N-levels this year ): Tough. Been going out with friend's and got lecture's from both my parent's well not literally a lecture just advices, which they ask me to lessen my time going out and study instead. I know how they feel. My mum had a conversation with me a few days back.
M; When's exam?
Q; A few weeks time, then N-levels then no more.
M; What about Sec5?
Q; Im not going sec5, if can also I dont wanna go sec5.
M; *sadvoice* then want go ITE dont want go Poly?
Q; Sec5 hard lah ma I dont think I can make it.
M; *Quiet*
I feel so demoralised when my mum ask me those question's because I know myself that I can't cope once Im up in Sec5. It's gonna be a struggle for me but I will try my best though. Mum please have faith in me. Even if 1day I can't make it to Sec5 and end up in ITE I promise to study well and mix with the right people. I hope so. Amin. Pray for me mum <3 I've also been gaining and losing weight in the same time. Ya allah those unhealthy food are always calling me to eat them how can I ever persevere my diet. Err nevermind I will continue to persevere. Going for a jog in the park tomorrow morning alone maybe around 7+ Hahaha how emo can I be? Hah. Luckily there is a small park near my house.
Enjoy your Friday people!
