Hey peepsy,
Im so SORRY for not updating my laziness is seriously bragging me to blog to many things happen since arnd me..Thursday school was such a boredom but tiring again bcoz of NETBALL can i say it-that coach have been very cuteee on that training she is more funnier except for that Miss Soh big oppps i hate her seriously since sec1..I mean coach have been very tough during the past trainings but today she's more kind then before^^I want her to stay this way..Went home with besties and overheard them talking bout him den flashbacks started playing in my head and i have to force myself to STOP that flashback of mine,went home and i did cried a few times bcoz of those FLASHBACKS it's seriously killing my mind & i want it to STOP! ive to learn to stay open-minded..And stop thinking bout things tht can cause a burden to me..Moving on today school was fun bcoz of the early release timing adah came in class and told us bout the msg he gve to lina fazirah started to get furious and start msging him and ask us to add in somemore i gave her 1 sentence and the rest was her,adah,qila & nad's words sorry Aqilah for wasting ur msg line..Lastly the msg wrote "fcuk you"I tried telling them dont put the word fcuk you bcoz like tk sopan and tak baek but den adah say biar ahh dier saket hati.I just kept quiet thinking that he wont reply but instead he will complain to lina and blablabla will happen.
Lina i understand how much you love ZAKIR remember this word I UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH YOU LOVE HIM but are you willing to face the difficulties in ur relationship later ON once there's hope in you guys to be together..Remember those tears you let go bcoz of the love that uve SACRIFICE??? and you want to be with him again bcoz u love him but does he REALLYREALLYREALLY show 100% that he love you TRULYTRULYTRULY huh?! Why he accepted the break-up if he still loves you..You said you have no feelings towrds zakir and now you said you love him..And why must you side shawal,We are helping you but den instead you scolded us for sending that msg-___-FINE! If you dont want to get in a fight with shawal but the one talking is us okayy lina so dont worry everything we write is just to MAKE HIM REALISE HIS MISTAKE he said to you 'you realise your mistake den talk to me' HELLO WHO SHOULD be the one realising the mistake???In the 1st place why zakir is showing att WHYWHYWHY?? I try to make you happy but it seems that nothing I do is right.All this MUST STOP can you guys confrnt eachother and problems will be solved easily?Better den each day one person's feelings will get HURT??!&& fazirah msging shawal again??Im totally confused..ONCE AGAIN I NOE YOU LOVE HIM SO MUCH STOP saying that we dont understand-___-URGGHHHHHHHHHHH if i have the guts i will cnfrnt them && talked things out but den the old memories will scare the hell out of me again..URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH skip that part aqilah kept asking me what's wrong with me it's NOT the NATURAL me yea aqilah ur totally right situations have changed and family problems start to appear in m head everyday i cry and come to school pretending everything is alright but how long must i wait with my situation now i can say that NO ONE CAN FEEL WHAT IM FEELING its hard & NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND it and that's why lina i want things between we all & they all get better & dont keep showing faces with each other seriously speaking i dont like it it isnt POLITE
I want things to work out calmly can??I cnnt STOP thinking bout the problem..HASLINAHPLEASE..this problems are pressuing me enough i have too much to think my family prob and this prob..Common Test is Mon i ned to concentrate more on studies and less in this things but i bet this probs is STRONG enough to pull me down and make me slack..:(
I dont want this things to affect in my studies && i cnnt STOP thinking bout it ynoe..My mom asked me why am i moody always and i didnt explained to her and i have been very RUDE to her bcoz of stress and pressure:((I hope things work out b4 Puasa it's NOT good to bermusuhan nanti batal puasa..YAALLAH pleaseplease give what haslinah want and please make us be like b4?! I give in too much in this problem CME was last and eva u seriously make me laugh alot MDM CHAN gave us free period but den must do her work 1st uhh great moving on aftr school went WS to accompany aqilah go return her library books lina didnt go well lina CHEER UP please..Faz followd Nabs and den i dont where she GO.Den went to buy ICE-CREAM and adah ur like a KITTEN first time drinking MILK seriously hahaha:D Den this nenek come & adah says she's cute & feel like pinching her cheeks adahadah ur very FUNNY indeed:D(*inside laughs)okayyokayy i ned to RELAX my mind now
byebye
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